This whole chapter has just been one giant facepalm. Seriously.
So Christian is all pissy and distant. He goes to take a shower, and Ana decides to go join him, and she gets in the shower with him and wraps her arms around him and he doesn’t do anything, which should be the first sign that she should give up, but she starts kissing him and goes to touch his dick and he says “Don’t” in a warning voice.
I release him, immediately.He’s saying no?My mind goes into free fall—has this ever happened before? My subconscious shakes her head, her lips pursed. She glares at me over her half-moon glasses, wearing her you’ve-really-fucked-up-this-time look. I feel like I’ve been slapped, hard. Rejected. And a lifetime of insecurity spawns the ugly thoughthe doesn’t want me anymore.
Ugh SHUT THE FUCK UP.
There’s this whole idea perpetuated by society that if a woman says no to sex, she’s an awful bitch, like how dare a woman not want to have sex with a dude. It’s part of that whole “nice guy” bullshit, like the woman owes it to the man to have sex with him to “repay” him or whatever. It’s all bullshit.
This…this is also bullshit.
SOMETIMES PEOPLE AREN’T IN THE MOOD TO HAVE SEX. THAT HAPPENS.
Maybe they don’t feel good, maybe they have a lot on their mind, maybe they just want some goddamned alone time in the goddamned shower.
IT DOESN’T MEAN HE DOESN’T FUCKING WANT YOU ANYMORE YOU OVERREACTING PSYCHOPATH.
STOP WAITING FOR HIM TO REALIZE HE DOESN’T LOVE YOU. STOP BELIEVING HE DOESN’T DESERVE YOU BECAUSE A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP CANNOT FUNCTION LIKE THAT.
“Don’t be mad at me, please. I think you’re overreacting,” I whisper.
He straightens, blanching. My hand falls free to my side.
“Overreacting?” he snarls. “Some fucking lunatic gets into my apartment to kidnap my wife, and you think I’m overreacting!”
Keep in mind they’re still in the shower while having this argument.
Also WHAT THE FUCK CHRISTIAN. IT’S NOT LIKE ANA LET JACK INTO THE FUCKING APARTMENT. IT WASN’T LIKE SHE WAS LIKE “OH HEY, YOU’RE HERE TO KIDNAP ME? COOL, I’VE GOT ALL MY STUFF PACKED. DO YOU WANT TO DUCT TAPE MY WRISTS AND ANKLES NOW, OR WAIT TILL WE GET DOWNSTAIRS?”
IT ISN’T HER FAULT SOME FUCKING CRAZY-ASS MOTHERFUCKER BROKE IN. YOU SHOULD JUST BE HAPPY THAT SHE’S OKAY AND NOT BEING RAPED OR MURDER-FUCKED IN A DUMPSTER BY JACK HYDE. BUT NO LETS GET MAD AT HER GOOD IDEA.
I’ve been waiting to use that gif forever haha.